My dad immigrated with nothing.
No savings. No connections. Not even enough English to ask for directions without feeling embarrassed. He worked three jobs—whatever he could find. Night shifts, weekend labor, anything that paid cash. He came home exhausted, smelling like sweat and grease, his hands cracked and swollen.
When people asked about him, I brushed it off.
“He’s too old to learn English,” I’d say casually. “That’s just how he is.”
I didn’t think I was being cruel. I thought I was being realistic.
When I turned eighteen, I got a “real” job—an office job with benefits and coworkers who spoke fast, confident English. I moved out almost overnight. Packed my things, changed my number, stopped coming by.
My dad never called.
I took that as proof that he understood. That he knew I needed space. That maybe he didn’t care as much as I’d once feared he did.
Eight months passed like that.
Then one afternoon, I realized I needed a document from his place—an old birth certificate. I didn’t call ahead. I just showed up, keys still fitting the lock like nothing had changed.
When I opened the door, I froze.
My dad was sitting at the small kitchen table, hunched over his old notebook. A YouTube video played on his phone—slow English lessons, the kind meant for beginners. He paused it, rewound it, repeated the words softly to himself.
“I… am… learning… English.”
The page in front of him was filled with careful handwriting. Misspelled words. Practice sentences. Notes written over and over again.
He looked up, surprised but smiling.
“I want to be better,” he said simply. “Maybe… better grandfather someday.”
That was it.
No guilt. No blame. No mention of how long I’d been gone.
My throat closed so suddenly I couldn’t speak. I stood there pretending to look for the document, because if I sat down, I knew I’d start crying. He went back to his lesson like nothing had happened, repeating words slowly, patiently.
I left with the paper—and a weight in my chest I couldn’t shake.
Now I visit twice a month.
We drink tea. We practice words together. His English is getting better. Mine gets softer around him.
We never talk about the lost time.
But every visit, he writes a little more in that notebook—and I stay a little longer than before.
