The funeral was held in a small chapel beside the river.
Naomi had expected a quiet gathering.
Instead, the pews filled with people who had known Raymond in different parts of his life.
Men from the packaging plant arrived in clean work shirts.
A school crossing guard came with her husband.
The pharmacist who'd sold Raymond the refill sat near the back.
Mrs. Bell carried a tray of muffins to the reception room.
There were no cameras inside.
The family had asked the funeral director to keep the service private.
Ashley sat beside Naomi with Buddy in her lap.
She had chosen to come after several gentle conversations about what a funeral would be like.
She understood that Raymond would not wake up.
She also knew she could leave the room at any point.
David sat on her other side.
When the minister began speaking, Ashley gripped Naomi's hand.
“Does everybody know my daddy?” she whispered.
“Not everyone. Many people knew different things about him.”
“They should know he made pancakes.”
“We can tell them.”
At the family's invitation, Frank stood to say a few words.
He described Raymond staying late to repair a conveyor belt so a coworker could go home to a sick baby.
He talked about the spare gloves Raymond kept in his locker for anyone who forgot theirs.
Then his voice cracked.
“He was always talking about his girl.”
Ashley lifted her head.
“Me,” she whispered.
Naomi nodded.
Frank held up the drawing from Raymond's locker.
A little yellow sun.
Two stick figures.
DADDY FIXES EVERYTHING.
“He couldn't fix every problem,” Frank said. “None of us can. But he never stopped trying to take care of the people he loved.”
He returned the drawing to Naomi afterward.
Ashley asked to hold it.
She stared at the uneven letters.
“I forgot I made this.”
“You were younger then,” Naomi said.
“I made his head too big.”
“I'm sure he liked it.”
“He put it where he worked.”
She traced the sun with her fingertip.
At the reception, Mrs. Bell approached carefully.
“Hello, sweetheart.”
Ashley recognized her.
“Did you bring muffins?”
“Blueberry and banana.”
“Daddy liked banana.”
“I remember.”
Mrs. Bell didn't talk about the four days.
She didn't ask Ashley to tell the story.
She just served her half a muffin and asked whether she wanted water.
Lorraine watched from a doorway.
She wanted to say she was sorry.
But Naomi had asked people not to crowd Ashley.
Lorraine stayed where she was.
Later, she found a quiet moment to speak with Naomi.
“I said terrible things.”
Naomi looked at her evenly.
“I heard.”
“I didn't know.”
“You didn't ask.”
Lorraine accepted the words.
“That's true.”
“I don't need an explanation today.”
“Of course.”
Naomi returned to Ashley without offering forgiveness.
The funeral did not settle the complicated questions waiting for the family.
Raymond had left no clear guardianship document.
Ashley was the likely beneficiary of some estate assets, but there were debts and administrative requirements.
The legal-aid attorney advised Naomi to avoid making promises about money or ownership until the appropriate processes were completed.
A child-welfare hearing was scheduled for the following week.
The agency had confirmed Naomi's home was suitable for continued kinship care.
David had rearranged his teaching schedule to help with appointments.
Still, Ashley would be leaving the town she knew.
Naomi asked her how she felt about that.
“Do I have to change schools?”
“Probably. We're going to ask what support they can give you.”
“Will my teacher forget me?”
“No. We can help you write to her.”
“Can I come back to see Daddy's grave?”
“Yes, when we can arrange it.”
Ashley tucked the drawing into Buddy's arms.
That evening, the funeral director gave Naomi a small envelope found among Raymond's personal effects, released after the proper procedures.
Inside was a receipt from the pharmacy.
And on the back, in Raymond's handwriting, a short note.
Ask Dr. Singh about Ashley's stomach pains.
Get milk.
Call Naomi if clinic cannot help.
Naomi read the last line twice.
Raymond had been planning to contact her.
Perhaps he had finally realized he couldn't carry everything alone.
She folded the paper carefully.
Ashley saw her holding it.
“Is that Daddy's writing?”
“Yes.”
“Can I keep it?”
“When you're ready.”
Ashley pressed the receipt between the pages of her favorite picture book.
Then she asked David a question.
“Do you know how to make pancakes?”
“Not very well.”
“Daddy put cinnamon in them.”
“Will you show me?”
Ashley nodded.
“We can try Tuesday.”
On the morning of the funeral, Ashley stood before the closet and changed her mind about her clothes three times.
She first chose the blue dress Clara had bought her for a school performance.
Then she said the dress felt scratchy.
Naomi offered a soft sweater and comfortable trousers.
Ashley chose those.
“Do I have to look sad?”
“No.”
“Everyone else will.”
“People show sadness differently.”
Ashley touched Buddy's green button eye.
“Can he come?”
“Of course.”
Naomi had spoken with the funeral director beforehand about preparing Ashley for the service.
He explained that the family could choose what she saw and did.
There would be no surprise viewing.
There would be quiet space if she became overwhelmed.
She could leave whenever she wanted.
Naomi told Ashley the plan before they drove to the chapel.
David packed water, crackers, tissues, and a small coloring book.
He didn't expect Ashley to use everything.
He wanted her to have options.
When they arrived, the chapel smelled faintly of lilies and polished wood.
Photographs of Raymond stood near the entrance.
One showed him wearing a baseball cap backward while holding a cake.
Ashley pointed.
“That's my sixth birthday.”
“Would you like to look at the others?” Naomi asked.
Ashley nodded.
They moved along the display slowly.
There was Raymond as a teenager, standing beside an old pickup.
Raymond at his wedding with Clara.
Raymond holding newborn Ashley.
Raymond kneeling beside a small bicycle.
“His hair was different when he was young,” Ashley observed.
“It was,” Naomi said.
“Why did he stop smiling in pictures later?”
Naomi studied the photographs.
“He still smiled. Maybe he was more tired.”
Ashley looked at the wedding picture.
“Mommy was pretty.”
“She was.”
“Do you miss her?”
“Every day.”
The answer seemed to reassure Ashley that missing someone did not mean being unable to live.
During the service, Ashley quietly traced circles on Buddy's paw.
Once she asked David why everyone stood at the same time.
He whispered that the minister had invited them to.
She stood when she wanted to and sat when she needed a rest.
No one corrected her.
After Frank's speech, several coworkers approached Naomi with stories.
A mechanic recalled Raymond repairing a broken heater in the workroom.
Another remembered him staying late to cover a shift so a colleague could attend a graduation.
A woman from the shipping office said Raymond always brought homemade birthday cards.
Naomi listened and wrote down names.
She wanted Ashley to have stories beyond the terrible week.
At the reception, an older man approached with a faded photograph.
He introduced himself as Raymond's former neighbor from before Clara died.
The photograph showed Raymond building a wooden shelf with Ashley sitting nearby in a high chair.
“He was terrible at measuring,” the man said fondly.
“Daddy wasn't terrible,” Ashley protested.
The man smiled.
“He was terrible at measuring, and excellent at fixing what went wrong.”
Ashley considered that distinction.
Then she laughed.
Naomi tucked the photograph into an envelope with the others.
At the graveside, Ashley chose to stand near the back.
She wanted to hold Naomi's hand, not the minister's book.
The ceremony was brief.
When people began leaving, Ashley asked for one extra minute.
She looked at the marker and whispered something no one else could hear.
Naomi did not ask what it was.
Back at the rental house, Ashley was exhausted.
She refused dinner at first.
Naomi offered a small plate and let her decide when to eat.
Ashley eventually asked for toast.
They ate together at the kitchen table.
Later, David helped her sort the photographs into a folder.
“Should we put them in order?” he asked.
Ashley shook her head.
“Put the happy ones first.”
He did.
On the last page, she placed the birthday picture with Raymond's enormous grin.
Then she closed the folder carefully.
“I don't want the accident to be the only thing I remember,” she said.
“It won't be,” David replied.
For several evenings after the funeral, Ashley insisted that the folder of photographs stay beside her bed.
She didn't open it every night.
Sometimes she just touched the cover before turning out the light.
Naomi asked whether the folder made her sad.
“Yes,” Ashley said.
“Would you like me to keep it somewhere else?”
“No. It makes me remember good stuff too.”
Naomi accepted that both feelings could exist together.
One afternoon, Ashley asked whether Raymond had ever been afraid of anything.
Naomi had to think.
She remembered Clara telling a story about Raymond trying to remove a spider from the bathroom.
He had used an enormous mixing bowl because he didn't want to get close.
Ashley giggled.
“Daddy was scared of spiders?”
“Apparently.”
“He told me he wasn't scared of anything.”
“He was probably trying to make you feel safe.”
Ashley considered that carefully.
“Was he scared the day he left?”
“Maybe he was worried. We know he wasn't feeling well, and we know he was trying to get your medicine.”
“Could grown-ups be scared too?”
“Yes.”
“Can they ask for help?”
“They should.”
Ashley opened the photograph folder and pointed to a picture of Raymond wearing a paper crown.
“He never asked me to fix his problems.”
“He shouldn't have needed you to.”
That evening, Naomi called Frank to thank him for bringing the drawing from Raymond's locker.
Frank asked whether the company could send Ashley a letter containing coworkers' memories.
Naomi thought it was a kind idea.
She requested that the letters contain no speculation about the accident and no pressure for Ashley to respond.
Frank agreed.
Two weeks later, a small packet arrived.
One note remembered Raymond bringing coffee for the night crew.
Another recalled a joke he told whenever a machine jammed.
One described his pride when Ashley learned to read.
Naomi offered the letters to Ashley without making her open them.
Ashley chose to read one that evening.
Then she put the packet away for another day.
“There's more for later,” she said.
“Yes.”
She seemed glad to know that remembering her father didn't have to happen all at once.
The next morning, Naomi asked Ashley whether she wanted to send a thank-you note to the funeral staff.
Ashley thought for a while.
Then she drew a tiny blue flower on a card.
Inside, she wrote:
THANK YOU FOR BEING KIND TO MY DADDY.
Naomi helped address the envelope.
They mailed it on their way to the grocery store.
When they returned, Ashley asked to make a small space on the bookshelf for the photograph folder.
David moved a stack of magazines and cleared the shelf.
Ashley placed the folder there, close enough to reach but not directly beside her bed.
“Is that better?” he asked.
“Yes.”
She picked up Buddy and went to the kitchen.
There were oranges to peel and a storybook to finish.
Remembering Raymond would be part of her life, but it did not have to consume every hour.
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